Ayo Menulis, Dez!

Somewhere in between… Somewhere in between, in the garden sprouts and my lover embrace, the quiet peace of dawn highlighting the dew. How perfect, how beautiful, what kind of catharsis I can feel this way! But how tragic ironically I put myself on this kind of imagery. That was just some kind of a human imagination longing for some kind of catharsis, for being purified and for being happy. Just like I am somewhere in between. I'll not know where to find the happiness, the elusive thing I want to reach. Some say, the happiness is about material, wealth, a thing, visible. Some other describe the happiness is a divine being, absurd, relief. For me it can be all of them, a kind of self-fulfilled, a thing(s) to be achieved. Happiness, yet is [not] merely a concept. Not a word that is often used to describe the state of being right now. An old thoughtful wisdom made an analogy; the beginning of happiness was a large crystal ball, which the gods used to play with. One day, while the gods...

Suatu pagi pada Desember basah, aku; seorang teman, berkunjung. Hai, kulihat dari jauh wajahmu seperti gula pasir, tentu saja aku tersihir, lalu aku mendatangimu, terlalu pagi memang, apa kau keberatan? Sedang apa kau? Hai, mengapa kau hanya terdiam? Untuk apa semua itu? "Kak, aku sedang membuat pintu, sebuah pintu untukku, yang akan ku gunakan sebagai gerbang, menuju apa yang belum pernah kulihat di depan sana. Di hadapanku, aku ragu untuk membuka pintu ini. Aku nihil apa yang ia sediakan; mungkin ada matahari yang siap membakar. Mungkin ada awan hitam yang siap memuntahkan air hujan. Mungkin ada angin yang sedang mengamuk. Mungkin ada pucuk pohon yang akan segera rubuh. Mungkin ada rembulan yang kesepian. Atau mungkin pintu ini sulit kubuka." Hei… hei… Gelas itu bukan setengah kosong, tapi setengah penuh. Ingatlah sudah Sembilan belas pintu kau lalui bukan? Tidakkah itu juga sebuah keajaiban? Pikirkanlah akan banyak bunga, burung-burung berkicau di pundakmu, awan yang memb...

That I would be good even if I did nothing That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down That I would be good if I got and stayed sick That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds That I would be good fine even if I went bankrupt That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth That I would be great i if was no longer queen That I would be grand if I was not all knowing That I would be loved even when I numb myself That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed That I would be loved even when I was fuming That I would be good even if I was clingy That I would be good even if I lost sanity That I would be good …. Alanis Morrisette, I like this song very very very much. It tells me that in whatever condition I am in, I do, I can, I would be always good. This is the essence of a self motivation for me. It is the sense of respecting myself when I'm terribly down, even if I did nothing, even if I got the thumbs down, even if the world has just pushed me into the bottom of t...