Ayo Menulis, Dez!

What if one day,I see a mirror, there's no reflection of mine. The emptiness's stroking my eyes, is it lying? I look upon myself, no hands, no face, no skin, no colors, nothing but the blank. The buzzing of the bee frightens my day. Zzzzz.... zzzzz.... Again, I closed my ear tightly. Zzzzzz.... zzzz.... But I still could hear it. where are you?? Bee?? Gnat?? Something buzzing... I find nothing.. Zzzzz... zzzz... O I know it, the Zzzzzz comes from my mind, the Zzzzz it's you. the one I couldn't describe but Zzzzzz. It's raining again. The coldness freeze me like a stone in the edge of the harbor. Now I'm a stone. I know I'm orange but sometimes I can be yellow, green or purple. I know my nectar could invite you and this might be you who flew upon me, the dancing butterfly, harmonizing the gray smoked world with the combination of our colors.

Nietzsche said that human destiny is controlled by the darkest side of realities and fancy dream illusions. Dua sisi itu; kenyataan dan ilusi membuat saya juga terjebak didalamnya tergantung sisi mana yang lebih kuat mengatur hidup saya, reality which is dark yang diwakili oleh Dionysius or beauty but illusion nya Apollonian????? Tapi sepertinya saat ini sang Apolonian berhasil menjerat saya dalam ilusinya yang indah n membuat saya menjadi daydreamer sejati. Tapi apa salahnya menjadi daydreamer...??? saya cuma tinggal menunggu saat-saat kehancuran itu, disaat saya terbangun dan dijemput Dionysius.... Bagaimana dengan kalian, sisi mana yang lebih kuat??? wkwkkkkkkkkkk.........

HE, perfectly spoiled my day, like a delicious melted ice cream...have to be licked immediately before it turns to a sweet liquid and stains my clothes. Bringing me back to the future of past, Well, I don't exactly know while it seems always blur. Like a second coming... is He really my savior????? Or Is He just a pathetic sphinx who brings me to the same old brand ruin???? I just pretended to be don't care. As I knew I will be broken to leave or survive... Do you know what I mean????? I'm fallin in love Or I'm being blinded of my dream realm....

what are you lookin at, freakies???????? Coba tebak apa yang sedang kami lihat hehehehehehe......

Aku ingin menjadi kupu-kupu kelabu yang kabarkan berita kematian kepada para hantu dari masalalu Aku mungkin menjadi berwarna kelabu yang tak pernah tertangkap kecuali oleh para penjahat Gariskan aku menjadi kelabu aku yang kelabu dan hanya termangu kuburkan aku di batu batu.... tapi dia didiriku yang lain, aku ingin menjadi kupu-kupu kuning yang kabarkan datangnya musim hujan kepada para petani di lereng Wonosari Aku ingin jadi kupu-kupu kuning yang dikejar tak tertangkap oleh anak sekolah yang riang sebelum mereka dipanggil pulang untuk makan siang oleh ibunya guratkan aku menjadi apa yang aku mau... meskipun aku tahu itu bukan aku (inspired by "idaman" dan hati yang janggal)

SORRY wasn't enough for it... how dare I say that I miss U, Do you know that I'm a broken fragile? longing in U... SORRY was never be enough for it... how dare you say that you left me for good!!!! I know you're broken too worse than I've ever felt... "I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do... and I hurt my self by HURTING you..." Dad, where ever you are.. I'm sorry coz I miss U